2010
Walking, or lack there of.
I lay here, at 2:30am, unable to get to sleep. I’ve got an appointment tomorrow to have my leg checked out again and a new swell potentially drained, and I just can’t get my brain to slow down. So here I am, writing this post, and wondering (nay, hoping) that it will let me calm my brain down enough that I’ll be able to go to sleep after it’s done.
I’ve had a lot of thoughts running thru my head lately, some good, some not so much, but all growing so I can’t really complain. It’s lead to some interesting conversations, especially with my question posted on Facebook of “what is your biggest fear?”. What’s mine? Dying alone. The idea literally scares me out of my mind, and I don’t quite know why. Maybe posting this will help me figure out why, and if nothing else, it’ll get it out in the open and down on paper, which typically allows me to stop thinking about it non-stop.
In personal news, I’m on the job hunt, and I’m redoing my vCard website. It’s giving me a chance to update my résumé, play around with CSS3, and keep fresh on the details I so very much pride myself on knowing. I’ve found like riding a bike, I never really forget the skills, I just also must admit I still can’t draw worth anything! Good thing I’ve got my camera right? Otherwise I’d never have any source images for anything I want to do! Funny when I think back that in college someone was trying to get me to be a 3D modeller for their start-up business. Oh well, I digress.
I hope this post finds everyone out there well, and if we haven’t spoken in a while, drop me a line! I’d love to hear from you. I’m rebuilding my contact list anyway, and to be entirely honest, I’d like to know how folks are doing and catch up. So hit me up.
2010
Updates, Explosions, and more…
So for those who didn’t guess by the theme change, WordPress 3.0 was released, and this site is now updated to its new core. Best part to me? I can get working on the child theme that will be the spinoff of what you now see as the official theme of the site. This actually has me rather excited, because I get to play with my digital camera to tie in new elements to the site, and hopefully will allow me to see thru some ideas I’ve had for a while.
I hope everyone enjoyed their 4th of July, or for my Canadian visitors, a wonderful Canada Day. One of my top favourite holidays, what other day do you get to enjoy the simple act of blowing stuff up?
On to me? Well, I’m working at simplifying my life again, clearing out the clutter, and getting back to basics. I’ve put some serious research into this, and I fear my amazon.com wish list has grown (and will continue to grow) at a rather insane rate. I’m not looking for a lot of things, I’m looking for a few nice things, but the wish list gives me a place to decide “hrm, do I want to go this route or that route?” A couple of things I’m focusing on:
- Kitchen supplies — I’m really looking at going mostly cast iron. Getting rid of the insane excess I own, and paring down to a couple nice pots and pans. Multitaskers of the world unite. Alton Brown would be pleased.
- Furniture — I’ve come to realize that most, if not all, of my furniture is very old and worn out. Replacing this is one of the biggest things on the list, but also the most complicated. Admittedly the area I could use the most help in figuring out a good set that would fit my retrofit. Ideas? Suggestions? Comment section or contact me! I’d love to hear what others are doing.
- Clothing — Much like my furniture, I haven’t done a proper clothing shop in I honestly don’t know how long. So I’m getting rid of the old and worn (for the most part), and getting the new and comfortable.
- Electronics — Yes, I’m a complete geek. I’ve now got a 40″ Sony TV, a new Panasonic Blu-Ray player, and a Miele Vacuum. That said, I’m not done… Technology was designed to make our lives easier and more enjoyable, and while the former part of that may be scientifically proven wrong, the latter half can indeed be true. What’s life if you’re not willing to have some fun right?
So I’m making things simple, I’m cleaning things up, and I’m getting back to basics. I like this idea, it’s refreshing, and while it’s a lot of work now, the result is entirely worth it to me. If you’ve wondered what I’ve been up to of late, this would be the answer. Well, that and working my 4 10s each week, as well as crowbaring some overtime in here and there to help. Oh, and playing some WoW, heroic Lich King dead, woot!
This is me, signing off for now, enjoy your day!
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2010
Life is like a rollercoaster
There are high points, low points, and what we call “living” are those glorious upward and downward slopes. Sure, there are some really high points along the path, but I’ve learned you have to accept the fact that there are also low points, and those simply need to be worked thru. Best part about the low points? You’ve gained so much speed heading down to them that they go by in your life very quickly. It’s the high points we approach slowly, and pause for a bit at the top of.
Why am I saying this? For the first time in my whole life, I know exactly what I want. I thought I had before, I thought I had found my way, but now? Right this instant as I’m typing this? I know without question, reserve, or mystery. What I am feeling right now is the most pure feeling I’ve ever had in my whole life, and I can’t describe how much I enjoy it.
I want to ride that rollercoaster, cherish in the high points, sail thru the low points, and experience every moment inbetween. More importantly? I know I want to share that journey. Most importantly? I know with who.
I woke up this morning with a smile on my face, after a day yesterday where I hit a low point. For those who know me, it tears me up inside to know I hurt someone… and yesterday? I did, and it killed me. A low point in the rollercoaster indeed. I couldn’t sleep for crap, it kept me up thinking, wondering, hoping for better… Then I finally crashed from exhaustion, woke up, and suddenly… I knew. I knew it was a new day, new hopes, new dreams, renewed faith, and I smiled.
Here is to a brighter tomorrow, cause we’ve got a long climb to the next peak.
2009
Why is it when I fly…
… I always come home, and feel like complete and utter garbage. My throat hurts, my nose is clogged, I couldn’t sleep for crap last night. So here I sit, a direct function of the process that is the American travel experience, and I’m pooped. Trip was overall good, bit hotter than I’d have hoped for, but there was lightning and thunder to make up for some of that heat. Took some time to think, some time to reflect, some time to realize exactly what it was about me that makes me tick. Good stuff honestly, good stuff indeed.
One thing I will say, I missed my friends, both old and new. You don’t really realize what you’ve got staring at you in the face until you’re not able to contact it for a while. Granted, I was there for a very specific purpose, and I wouldn’t have traded it at all. But it does put one into kinda a reflective mode. Anyway!
Coming sooner than later (ie: very likely this week):
- Updated About Me Page: I’m not pleased at all with the great american novel that is my about me page, so yea, major revamp time.
- Couple Posts of Ideas: I’ve been organizing my life a bit of late, and there’s a couple ideas I’ve come up with that would assist me with using the tools I already use better.
- Integration: If you couldn’t tell, I’m not only here, but I’m on Twitter and on Facebook as well. They’re my choice for ‘asides’ posts if you will. What do I want to do with that? Get a little more bi-directional posting, so that everywhere can be updated every time.
Anyway, yea, that’s me. And look, it didn’t take a year for the next update! *cough* More later.
P.S.: Broiler + Sandwich stuffs + 5 minutes == Charcoal.
2006
So it’s been a while… but a good while…
Wow, so that was the longest “I’ll be posting later” that I’ve ever had. Usually I’m a tad quicker, but honestly a ton of stuff has come up that has prevented me from posting on a regular basis. And then the times that I have available, I’ve been working on various projects, or simply attempting to relax.
So lets see, what’s happened since my last post… Well, there was that whole Christmas season which came and went all to quickly it seemed. I went from December 5th to December 25th in one day it seemed, and I can hardly remember the time inbetween. I guess that’s what “life in the fast lane” is like. Course, I’m still rather shocked that we’re already in February.
January was stressful. That’s about the nicest thing I can say about it aside from the fact that I celebrated my birthday towards the end of the month. Work was the main source of the stress, with the store recording record low sales, and yet still having the foot traffic of previous years. Basically, we were customer service for a great part of January, and in a commision based business, that’s a huge source of stress.
So what does the future lay for me? Honestly? I’m not sure… I like my job, I enjoy the people I work with, and I really do like the customers I’m helping out. But unless something changes, I’m fearful that someone else may choose to change our store in one form or another. I guess only the future will tell, but I can be certain that I’m going to do everything in my power to make sure our store continues to service the area.
Other than all of that… I’m doing quite well 
I’ve met some new people who I’m very much enjoying talking with, and I’m progressing my life in my own way. Heck, I’m even working on a new idea for the website a bit as far as design to let me rediscover myself in that way too.
I guess this post comes down to one thing… I’m doing as the slogan for this site has said for a year now. I’m rediscovering myself, one post at a time, one day at a time. And what have I discovered so far? Well, that’s another post for another day.
Til then.
(P.S.: Of all the things I know the most right now, I know I need love.)
