When I originally launched this site the upkeep was insane. Everything was hand written, but I loved the look and feel I had developed for the page layout. Problem was, my tastes change a lot when it comes to design, and I found myself spending more time on maintenance than actually posting content. Lately, I’ve been slacking on content because the presentation isn’t where I want it to be. So it’s time to fix that, it’s time to get back to my roots, while still being able to allow Wordpress to do it’s job and handle all the backend code that I’d honestly rather not deal with on this project.

So hopefully you’ll be seeing a change again by Thursday, and if nothing else, I’ll post some screenshots of the work in progress. (Even though my visit count has gone down recently due to lack of updates, I still can’t launch an at least mostly complete theme)

Until then.

Why am I saying this? For the first time in my whole life, I know exactly what I want. I thought I had before, I thought I had found my way, but now? Right this instant as I’m typing this? I know without question, reserve, or mystery. What I am feeling right now is the most pure feeling I’ve ever had in my whole life, and I can’t describe how much I enjoy it.

I want to ride that rollercoaster, cherish in the high points, sail thru the low points, and experience every moment inbetween. More importantly? I know I want to share that journey. Most importantly? I know with who.

I woke up this morning with a smile on my face, after a day yesterday where I hit a low point. For those who know me, it tears me up inside to know I hurt someone… and yesterday? I did, and it killed me. A low point in the rollercoaster indeed. I couldn’t sleep for crap, it kept me up thinking, wondering, hoping for better… Then I finally crashed from exhaustion, woke up, and suddenly… I knew. I knew it was a new day, new hopes, new dreams, renewed faith, and I smiled.

Here is to a brighter tomorrow, cause we’ve got a long climb to the next peak.

That said, if you have a Wave account, feel free to add me:
j…@g…e.com

Also, as a Wave user, I’ve got 20 invites available. I’m reserving about 5 of those for special individuals, but the other 15 are up for grabs. Either shoot me a wave (lolol, email), IM me, contact me somehow, and let me know your email address you’d like the invite sent to. They’re not an immediate send, as Google quotes “Invitations will not be sent immediately. We have a lot of stamps to lick.” But you’ll get it fairly promptly if I’m not mistaken.

So yea, if you’d like one, contact me, and I’ll be posting my feedback on this wonderful tool soon hopefully.

That said, I’m hoping it doesn’t start freezing the ground soon, cause I’d like to actually get a couple things moved around before the big deep freeze. After years up here, it still surprises me how much longer it seems to take to get things done thru the winter months. And I was honestly not expecting this near this quickly, so time to beat feet.

Otherwise, I’m alright, calm quiet days have given me a chance for reflection, to continue the process that has been the slogan for this website for years now. To Rediscover myself, one post at a time. That in of itself is more a help than I could have potentially thought. I’m almost where I need to be, and that’s got me feeling pretty darn good.

Well, I’d write more, but I’ve got a couple other projects that need to get done, so I’m gonna get to them! More soonish!

That said, I’m always looking myself! Are there any freebie sites you find exceedingly useful? Leave a comment here, twitter me, email me, facebook, hell, any contact method! I’ll definitely take the time to check them out, and might even add them to the page if I like them enough.

In other news, life is… moving. It’s raining today here, and I can’t express in words how good that makes me feel. Since moving away from the Bremerton area, that’s the one thing I have consistently missed was the rain, and the fun of having a “rain day”. It’s so relaxing, and gives me something that I just can’t describe, but it’s very good indeed. So I know for a fact it’s something I need in my life. Mental note to self: Never move to the desert.

Or maybe it’s just that I like hot chocolate… *shrug*

More later.

I spent a little bit of time researching solutions to this matter, and among others found a solution in the oddest of places. Seems there are special diabetic socks, and said socks have no constricting band at the top, and hence, no elastic at all in them. Example: Diastar Comfy Feet Diabetic Socks, 3-pack. So yea, I guess as much as we joke about getting socks for christmas as kids, they’re gonna be on my wish list this year. Grandma’s gonna love hearing this one…

Speaking of, the weather here in Idaho is starting down the path of “lets get cold at night”. Which means that fall and winter aren’t far around the corner, and my personal favorite type of weather is coming quick. Lets just hope we don’t have another record breaking snow fall year.

Welp, more soonish.

In other news, I apologize for my silence of late. I’ve had a lot on my mind, and even more on my plate as it were. It’s been a very insane month for me, and the next one doesn’t look like it’s going to slow down at all. Crazy how things work out like that huh? Oh well! Starting into better weather, and that should help a bunch for me personally. Love the winter!

Anyway, just a quick update to say yes, I’m alive, yes I’m around, and yes I’ll be updating this sooner than a month from now.

I just love getting threats from people who don’t even know me, know who I am, or know anything about me. Makes me feel all warm and fuzzy inside. Oh, and it makes for GREAT fun for my comic relief notebook Oye, another day done, another one to come. Can’t believe some people these days…

The comment in question? A comment posted to my “Something I need to say…” post I made a little while back. A post thanking people who have been in my life, and getting back in touch with people. (Which ironically, facebook has helped me do more than I could ever have imagined). The comment? Glad you asked:

I had this guy who looked a lot like you trying to get close to my wife about 4 years ago. He even had the balls to show up at my house while I was at work and lie to her about asking me if it was OK first. He was totally hung up on her from a friendship they had in the past and was lonely and desperate, so he was hounding after a married woman.

Yesterday, while playing some computer games with my wife I saw his profile pop up on her Facebook. Obviously, I was surprised to see his profile on her page, as the “relationship” she had with him previously had almost ended our marriage. You see, she has asked me to remove all of the female classmates of mine from my Facebook page, which I did reluctantly, so to see someone on hers that was the cause of so much stress in our marriage blew me away.

I confronted my wife about it today and she said that it had been 4 years since she had talked to him and that was all in the past. He is still single. He is still searching for love. He is still desperate so in my mind, he is still dangerous to our marriage.

I think that it would be best for my wife and him he he just go away for as long as we are married as it will continue to be something that bothers and stresses me out. If the day comes and we ever split for any reason at all, then I am sure my wife will do what she pleases and contact whom she pleases but if that even happens and until then, stay the Fuck away. Got it?

First off, let me admit it. Yup, I showed up at your house while you weren’t there, to see a friend I had known for 10 years. We didn’t do anything wrong, we just talked… caught up on old times, whatever. Sure, you’re going to say “oh but I heard such and such from so and so”, yea, well, you’re wrong. Moreover, I never pretended at all that I had your permission to visit, nor would I think it necessary to obtain as a marriage doesn’t involve one person running the aspects of the others life… But maybe I’m not as old fashion.

Anyway, since that fateful visit, and the issue that then happened with your marriage, I have kept my distance, I didn’t even speak to my friend these past 4 years out of respect for her attempting to save her marriage after you got all overreacting. 14 years I have known your wife, since before you were even in her life, and I put all that friendship aside because I respect what she wants.

I’m not desperate, I’m not a danger to your marriage… Hell, if anything, your over reacting is going to cause more harm than good in this matter. Perhaps you should do a reality check? Think about what it is exactly that’s hurting your marriage, look long and hard in the mirror, and question deep down within yourself before you answer that too.

At any rate, I’ve got nothing to hide, I’m not going to sit by idly and make you think “oh hey, I got to say something so profound he won’t even approve the comment on his site!”. (Question though, after 4 years, you still remembered my website? Amusing…)

Anyway, in closing, go ahead and post whatever you like, I’ve got nothing to hide, and nothing to be afraid of. My life is more in order than you give credit, and you’ll only find yourself looking like the business end of a cow.

Oh yes, and coming soon ™, a post regarding what I posted on my facebook a couple days ago… Til then!

Leave a comment, let me know what you think, I’m kinda having fun with it, so it’s a good little project.

Anyway! More later.